Sept. 28, 2014
Romans 1-2
The diagnosis of the human condition.  If the diagnosis is wrong the remedy will be

wrong.  A righteousness of God will be revealed.  The wrath of God is being

revealed.  God gives people over to their sinful desires and a depraved mind.  He lets

us go in the direction we chose to go.  They will receive the consequenses.  Sins are

never our friends.
I have to face God.  Judgement is necessary and logical.

Psalm 139
1 O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.[a]
Wonderful are your works;
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart!
    Try me and know my thoughts![c]
24 And see if there be any grievous way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting!
    you discern my thoughts from afar.

1-God's judgement is individually applied and given
I have no excuse.  How I judge others I am condemning myself.
What is the plank in my own eye.  What is my cover up?
I have looked at other people doing bad things, but what about me.
Gender based violence when there were many rapes.  Extreme examples-
I need someone to work with me.  Too often I have felt indignant.  There has been
horror.
What about gender based abuse in Toronto and here wherever I am?

God does not show favouritism.  I am extremely self defensive about myself.


2-God's judgement is internal.  He judges the secrets that become exposed.  God is
not concerned with the externals.
Jesus came to save me.  He is concerned with what is going on inside of me.
Anyone who is angry with his brother is already guilty with murder.
We can all build a good external.  Everything will be exposed.

Mat 23-Woe to teachers of the law.  The cup on the shelf is clean on the outside but

full of gunge on the inside.  You are hypocrites.  Dead bones are on the inside.
Romans 2:16
Looking at myself is a lot less comfortable. God scrutinize my heart.  The gospel of

Jesus gives me reasons and resources.  God please lead me to where I need to be.

3-
God's judgement is impartial.  If you call yourself a Jew, and brag about your

relationship with God.  There dilema can be uniquely shared with Christians.  We can

put ourselves above other.   I know your will.  You who teach others, teach yourself.
God's name is blasphemed.  When I sin God gets blasphemed.  I have been so

dammaged God.  Please help, heal and deliver me to the way you want me to be.  I

love you Lord.  I have the words of god and I have less to exuse myself.  God gave

me so much.  Lord it seems so onesided.   How does my unrighteousness brings out

God's righteousness so clearly.  My works will be judged.  I need to be refined.  Why

do I still feel so condemned.  God shows his truth in me.  Jesus in me is my hope of

glory.  Though I not perfect I am the expression of His glory.  Perfect love casts out

all fear.
How does the world see Christ in me?  I want the world to truly see Jesus in me.  No

one is righteous.   We have all sinned.

The diagnosis of the disease is what I need to know.  What needs to happen in me?
Now a righteousness from God is made known.  It comes through faith in Jesus.
I need to agree with the diagnosis.
Romans 3:21-26
Righteousness Through Faith
21 But now apart from the law the righteousness of God has been made known, to

which the Law and the Prophets testify. 22 This righteousness is given through faith

in[a] Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference between Jew and Gentile,

23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and all are justified freely

by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. 25 God presented

Christ as a sacrifice of atonement,[b] through the shedding of his blood—to be

received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his

forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished— 26 he did it to

demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who

justifies those who have faith in Jesus.
Free me from the damaging habitual habits and change me Lord Jesus I pray.
Thank you for forgiving me.

Blessed be Your name

In the land that is plentiful

I can share when I first turned to the Lord.  It was a soon as I could remember and knew what I was thinking.   I was around 5 or 6.  I first heard the song  "Jesus Loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so.  Little ones to Him belong.  They are weak but He is strong.  Yes Jesus loves me."  That is when Jesus came into my life and I started to follow Him.  Almost every thing after that was confusing for me as an orphan.  God was so faithful, is and always will be.  This is my story, this is my song, Praising my saviour all the day long.  Thank you Jesus.  I love you.  amen

Has God abandoned me.

Has God abandoned me.
No, never but from my experience with churches I have felt this way.
About a year and half ago my husband died and after that, basically
no one from the church I went to bothered with me.
God is not to blame, but as in Job, nothing happens unless God allows it.
God gave Satan permission to do bad things to Job.  So in that sense God is to
blame.  Being responsible for something is very close to being to blame. And what
God's reasons were are beyond our thoughts.  He is God and Lord of everything.
He has a perfect plan and we can only guess.  I believe His ultimate purpose is that
He might be glorified.  In the long run He is good and only has good intentions
towards us Hischildren.

Not long after I began going to a new church in Niagara Falls my husband got a foot
wound.  For a diabetic this is not good.  Praise the Lord we found a diabetic foot
doctor who was able to help some what.  At the same time we needed help.  I asked
the leadership at the church for help.  One person tried to help but couldn't, yet
no matter how much I begged for help no one else would.  It felt like the way I and my
family were treated when I was a little girl.  Only the pastor at the time offered to
come and pray for Jim.  I believe this time contributed to my grieving a lot of
childhood losses and perhaps added Post Traumatic Stress.

The church I knew then turned its back on me, my widowed and abused mother, and
baby sister too.  We even had to beg for water because the house we were in did not
have running water.

Aug. 30,2014
Just read this in the Psalms

Psalm 119:75
I know, Lord, that your laws are righteous,
and that in faithfulness you have afflicted me.

My father was killed accidentally when he worked for Toronto Hydro.  People wise no one
was there for us.  It seemed like we were condemned and thrown to the wolves.

You and I CANNOT rewrite history..we cannot whitewash the bad stuff...we cannot
UNDO the atrocities. we cannot change the HISTORY books. we cannot keep
hiding our heads in the sand. BUT we CAN learn from it and resolve that it does
NOT happen again.

I was accused of judging and badmouthing the people from the church I went to.  I
ask "Is it right to judge?

For instance, the Pharisees and teachers of the law knew the Word very well. They
followed it as closely as they possibly could. Yet Jesus said they were full of dead
men s bones. (Matthew 23:27) Was Jesus judging them? No, He was judging their
fruit, or the lack thereof.

and there are more examples.  When I speak I am using the scripture to help me
judge the fruits.
Is It Right to Judge?

I never ran any one down but I do judge the fruits.  I criticized the fruits
not the people.

Sept.12, 2014

Recently I found out I have a broken neck and this happened before my husband
died, perhaps almost 3 years ago.  I fell asleep standing up at a networking event,
probably because I was tired from working all the night before.  When they took me
to the hospital and did a cat scan they didn't find anything abnormal.  After a while
I started going to a chiropractor.  Along the way I often told him I was dealing with
spinning in my head when I turned in bed.  He also sent me for an x ray and found
nothing abnormal.  Recently after telling the chiropractor I still had the spinning
affect he sent me for another x ray but at a different angle.  That time he found
that I have a broken neck and some other abnormalties and suggested I get a
referral to a neurologist.  That was about 5 months ago.  After going to a local
health practitioner I am still waiting for an appointment.  I am not sure why the
group in Niagara Falls suggested I was disrupting their meetings (from my point
of view I was following their lead).  Perhaps only one time when I said I had to leave
I couldn't handle it.  Now I know why.  At that time all of a sudden I felt a lot of
stress in my head and thought it was due to blood pressure.  Now I know it was due
to my head/neck injury.  Then when Rob came at me with his fist it was worse.  The
neck, the spine and the central nervous system are all related.  When the spine is
out of kilter it pinches a lot of nerves.  It didn't take much to stress me physically.
The reason I am sharing this now is because I am still learning this.  I was totally
misjudged by some groups.  I never went to them with an agenda other than to find
their stand on widows and orphans.

I am complete in Jesus and there is nothing more that I can do, He did everything
for me and for you.  It was not by works of righteousness, but by His grace alone.
Ephesians 2:7,8,&9
7so that in the ages to come He might show the surpassing riches of His grace in
kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. 8For by grace you have been saved through
faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; 9not as a result of works,
so that no one may boast.…

 Philippians 3:8,9&10
Knowing Christ is Above All
…8More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of
knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things,
and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, 9and may be found in Him,
not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Law, but that which is
through faith in Christ, the righteousness which comes from God on the basis of
faith, 10that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship
of His sufferings, being conformed to His death;… (I have already share much
of the above.)

Colossians 2:9,10&11
regardless of how I feel I am Alive in Christ forever,
…9For in Him all the fullness of Deity dwells in bodily form, 10and in Him you have
been made complete, and He is the head over all rule and authority; 11and in Him
you were also circumcised with a circumcision made without hands, in the removal
of the body of the flesh by the circumcision of Christ;…

"Welcoming the widows reflects the heart of God."

• James 1:27 Canadian widows and orphans need support too One of the comments on this site is "Welcoming the widows reflects the heart of God." When I recently asked a group about James 1:27" the lead got mad at me and said if I wanted to come back to the group I would have to ask forgiveness. I wondered what he meant. Did I need forgiveness for being a widow. This group is planning on starting a church in Niagara Falls called "Catch the Fire". One of the themes of Catch the Fire is the Father's heart. How can they claim the Father's Heart and get mad at widows I ask?

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  James 1:27 Canadian widows and orphans need support too I never asked for help or support but asked what their stand was on James 1:27. When I asked the head pastor Steve Long about what happened this was his response to me via email: "Again Caroline, you have missed the issue. The problem was not about not wanting to help you, the issue was they felt that you were interupting the meetings rather than being in the flow of what was happening. When a person is a guest at someone's house, they need to learn what the house rules are. The leaders felt that you were not willing to let them lead rather you had your own agenda. 
  
  Another point Caroline to consider is did you have relationship with these people? If you didn't, why would you expect them to begin to care for someone they don't know? The church that you were a part in Niagara before Catch the Fire showed up are the ones you should have been going to for support. I'm not sure which church that was or even if you were in a church. If you weren't in a church, then you can't expect a new church to do that for you until you have relationships." I ask where did he get these ideas from. No where in the Bible are there the same ideas.

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  James 1:27 Canadian widows and orphans need support too This is what Jesus said: "42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’
  
  44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’
  
  45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me."

 It was so good to be at Catch the Fire Newmarket Sunday.  It was so timely that Connie spoke on securities and when they are removed in our lives and she was also talking about heritages in our lives.  I shared with her that God has had securities taken from me since I was a baby, but before I knew about that the first thing I remember was hearing in Sunday School-"Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so."  While the world can try and take this truth, God will never allow it.  My heritage is and always has been of Jesus because the Bible says so.  I was in England and saw my great grandfather's grave.  The headstone was a cross and the words on it said "Asleep in Jesus."

The next thing I heard in my life was "Onward Christian Soldiers."  From the the first awareness of Jesus in my life, I was called to be a soldier, called to war but carrying the Royal Banner of Christ.  Thought most and maybe all that many people would consider security and for me especially people who should have been protectors were removed.  Because of that my dependence is on God for everything.  Though I have not had much money  He is my provider.  Though I don't know how to make it from day to day-and I know I am not very good at dealing with losses, I know who my Saviour is.  There are, have been and always will be riches in my life that money will never be able to buy but God alway provides.

II am thankful for the riches that include the people I have met and who are a part of my life.

Monday I did a Family Day caricature job the Lord gave me and was financially blessed.  Tuesday I am headed home.  I went to the East Gwillimbury Chamber of Commerce breakfast and was blessed by people I have known for years and shortly I after had lunch at the United Church with more people Father has blessed me to know.

May the Lord keep you and cover you and guide you with His Love and Blessing.

Thinking about the tragedy in Connecticut-Please pay attention to people outside your circles. I know what it is like to have trauma and and tragedy happen. No one was there for me and my family. People turned their backs on us. The effects and hurts have been a part of our lives indefinitely. It is so good to hear how their is so much support for the families in Connecticut. At the same time it hurts were on our own and learned to internalize and work it through on our own. Please watch out for others and be there for them, especially if your family is fairly healthy. Oh how I am hurting for those families!

Perspectives

 Whitney Housyon died a little over a week ago. 

She sang love to Jesus-"the Gospel ."



 

I Look To You As I lay me down

Heaven hear me now

I’m lost without a cause

After giving it my all

Winter storms have come

And darkened my sun

After all that I’ve been through

Who on earth can I turn to?

Chorus:

I look to you,

I look to you

After all my strength is gone

In you I can be strong

aI look to you,

I look to you

And when melodies are gone In you I hear a song

I look to you

'bout to lose my breath

There's no more fighting left

Sinking to rise no more

Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken

Led to my regret

And I don't know if I'm go'n make it

Nothing to do but lift my head

Chorus:

My levees are broken

My walls are coming down on me

My rain is falling

Defeat is calling

I need you to set me free

Take me far away from the battle

I need you

Shine on me!

Chorus: 

One meaning of perspective is "the way in which objects appear to the eye."

 2 PICTURES OF THE SAME HOUSE

YET THEY LOOK LIKE TWO DIFFERENT HOUSES

We all have different viewpoints or perspectives.   There are so many ways to see objects, regardless of how different they are they remain the same object.  Comparitively the way we understand what we hear, read or feel may seem different, but only because of our viespoints of life's history.

In relationship to God, there are so many aspects to Him that we can only take in so little at once.  Some people think their thinking is the right way and others think theirs is.  God's thinking is so beyond ours.  He is the Alpha and Omega.

THE KINGDOM OF GOD

Lately in church the topic has been about the Kingdom of God and today it included the righteousness of God. Some people think righteousness is relating to bad things people do such as what is morally right or wrong - and sometimes in particular to those outside the church.

The Bible says we are to  "SEEK THE KINGDOM OF GOD AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS ."  How different is it as we see righteousness and how God sees it.  Only God is righteous but we can be righteous because we have been given right standing with God through Jesus Christ.

Matthew 7:3

Jesus said  "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?"

How responsible are we for the good or bad of others?  What difference can we make ro help others and ourselve to be and do better?  I think being a disciples of Jesus, His follower of His ways and His truths should be my goal



TODAY IS MENTAL HEALTH DAY

Paul said in his scriptures..be thou an example to the believers,,I was wondering this at first..why to the believers and not to the unbelievers we must be an example first? We can never be a blessings to the unbelievers, until we become an example to the believers means it was a packaged already.And there are only two things we can become of as a christian,,a blessings to others or a cursed.If we... confessed that we are christian and do not live like CHRIST then we condemn ourselves and we become a curse to other people instead of a blessings. If there is a contest that we are going to participate with..it must be a contest of doing good to everyone,,showing love and helping other people in needs. Our works shows who we are more than our words....as we know that our labor in the Lord will not be in vain.

   I have dealt with a lot of mental challenges throughout my life. Because I never had anyone to talk to I learned to internalize everything. Most recently I tried to make sense of some of the things with a couple of pastors the response was don't communicate with us anymore we will not answer your email. They purposely turned there backs on me. Years ago when I was trying to make sense I was kicked out of a church and accused of being demon possessed. Growing up I went through all kinds of loss and abuse (sexual and otherwise).  
   
   I grew up in a widow orphan family because my father was killed at work. Part of my experience in life was that Jesus came into my life immediately as soon as I could think because I heard he loved me. But at the same time I did not understand why people in the church turned there back on me and my family. No one bothered with us because we were a widow and orphan family.

    Another part of this is my mother was majorly mistreated by the Canadian system She was 19, pregnant and had 2 children under 3 when my father was killed. I believe the system did not want her to be a social burden they put her in a mental hospital, gave her electric shock, killed her baby and sterilized her

“Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close”

Just came from seeing this movie. This is the synopsus from the websit...Adapted from the acclaimed bestseller by Jonathan Safran Foer, “Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close” is a story that unfolds from inside the young mind of Oskar Schell, an inventive eleven year-old New Yorker whose discovery of a key in his deceased father’s belongings sets him off on an urgent search across the city for the lock it will open. A year after his father died in the World Trade Center on what Oskar calls “The Worst Day,” he is determined to keep his vital connection to the man who playfully cajoled him into confronting his wildest fears. Now, as Oskar crosses the five New York boroughs in quest of the missing lock – encountering an eclectic assortment of people who are each survivors in their own way – he begins to uncover unseen links to the father he misses, to the mother who seems so far away from him and to the whole noisy, dangerous, discombobulating world around him. I have to write it down now because a lot from the movie reminded me of my father and how I want connections from him. I remember trying to find people who knew him and ask them what they knew about him.

what a difference people who call themselfves Christians could make to making this a better world

My exerience in life is there are people who call themselves Christians yet they turn there back on people who come to them in need. When I was a little girl my father was killed. When we went to church no one would bother with us. In recent years and connected with a church in Aurora and was going through what happened to me as a child. When I tried to ask questions and make sense of those things I was accused of being demon possessed and kicked out. More recently I reconnected with people from the same church I again was black listed because I began asking if they could help me clarify some things. In the new testament church there were no needs and everything was shared. In this church if there is a need do they turn their backs on everyone as they did me? He said what you do to others you do to me! In the Bible Jesus said "For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me something to drink; I was a stranger, and you invited Me in; 36naked, and you clothed Me; I was sick, and you visited Me; I was in prison, and you came to Me.’ Then He got angry with those who turned their backs on the needy.

Who are the people called by God

if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
NIV 2 Chronicles 7:14
Who are the people called by God's Name
and when he found him, he brought him to Antioch. So for a whole year Barnabas and Saul met with the church and taught great numbers of people. The disciples were called Christians first at Antioch.NLV Acts 11:26

By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."
NIV John 13:35."
"see how they love one another! They are ready to lay down their lives for each other

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Malachi 4:2
"But for you who fear My name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings; and you will go forth and skip about like calves from the stall."

Several years ago I was working in a group home for mentally/physically handicapped adults and in the room of one of the clients was the above scripture on a was hanging with the names of people who gave it to her. I thought Lord you're going to bring healing into the client's life. I still believe this, but also realize God put those word on the wall for me as I realized the healing He is working through my life.

My friend Pam gave me a glass bird like the one I sketched for Christmas. When I took it out of the box one wing was broken, reminding me of God's healing wing.

I must read the Scriptures as I have never read them before.
Revelation 1
The revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave him to show His servants what must soon take place. He made it know by sending His angel to His servant John who testifies to everything he saw-that is the word of God and the testimony of Jesus Christ . Blessed is the one who reads the words of this prophecy, and blessed are those who hear it and take it to heart what is written in it, because the time is near.

I must look for God in all of my life and there is so much to write as I look forward.
The thoughts continue as John is writing Revelation, in that through his life and his personal experiences with Jesus, John has a lot to write. As God reveals Jesus Christ to John as he had never known (even when he walk with Him). John was reminded of the word of God, the testimony of Jesus and all that he had seen. As the Holy Spirit led, John was directed to write continual unchangingness, the same yesterday, today and always, and all victorious throughout.

Father of The Fatherless

Today I heard this comment-the best way to further evil is for the righteous to do nothing.

Psalm 68:5 says "God is a Father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in His holy dwellings." Although my father died before I was 3 and every family member turned their back on my mother and my sister and myself God received me. Psalm 27:10 says I can call out to Him "You are my Father, my god, the Rock, My Saviour" and Psalm 89:26 says " God is the perfect father."

I am going through some of the journals I wrote from time to time over the years and following is one of my writings. I am a sometimes taxi driver, as is my husband Jim who drives cab full time.

One of the favourite titles I remember as a T.V. series was the NAKED CITY because of the quote when the show began , there are a million stories in the Naked City and this is just one of them."

LADY CAB

ON THE PROWL

God's got a million mysteries in this dark and empty city. Let's begin our search as a new one unfolds.

The city is a satellite that mergers to a major cosmopolitans giant to the south. The night is beginning uneventfully as those that preceded. Senior citizens returning from the walk-in clinics, students going to the mall, men winding to the bars, then home and so forth. Tips were fair as the shift began to grow until close to the end.

On the post catching some shut eye when the dispatcher calls "car for area 12!" I booked and got the order, went to the address. A man came out and said "you're not a big enough car." I had to leave and gave way to a Lincoln Town car. Oh well time to go home so I thought. "Car need for area 5!" Wow! that's me. "Car Five O go to #5 Wellduck Road and buzz 007!" Pulling up in front of the doors, an elderly lady steps out and waved. "I want tot go to Pilkering Rd." Where, "Pikering Rd." Looking in the MAPS book found everything else but Pilkering no Rd.
I radioed the dispatcher for directions which I proceeded to follow. All along the way the lady laughed a lot and I wondered. Suddenly she said " I've got a secret. " What is that I asked. " I'm not going to tell you!" She replied. " I'm 73 years old and I got baptized in the Holy Spirit 60 years ago, but I don't go to church any more because those people don't understand me." Approaching a coffee shop I offered to get her some coffee. She declined the coffee but asked for some milk. We pulled to the drive through and I bought her some milk. As we continued I asked if she knew any songs and we sang Jesus loves me, and This little light of mine I'm going to let it shine. I continued driving, driving and driving. I never did find Pilkering Rd.. I apologized to the woman. She said "Don't worry, all things work together for good, just take me home. "
I said "since I didn't get you where you wanted you don't owe me anything." She said "I have lots of money, here have this and thank you." She handed me a $100 bill. I felt bad, but she would be angry if i gave it back! What a night! /will I ever understand how God works. Thank you, good night and blessings,
Mrs. Sunshine (Lady Cab)